this.
Other people's skill levels fluctuate over time. what if you beat them a bunch, then they take a set off of you? Kind of invalidates the hit list.
Imo the best goal is to just try to be the worlds greatest.
I was reading the mlg article on kdj linked to in the anniversary forum and his mindset really makes sense. He wanted to be the best in his town, then the best in his region, then the best in the country, then the world. Like consecutively bigger concentric circles.
well "hit list" isn't like a literal term, i suppose. last time i played hax and oscar i technically beat them, but i'm still not satisfied. it's not an ego-based thing, or else i would probably be saying "hell yeah i **** for beating ____." that's not it though--i want to catch up to players like lucien and shroomed, and even SS/lucky in the long run, because i know by then that i WILL have put in work. i have a huge amount of respect for these people. they have been adapting their minds, changing their gameplay, and staying motivated, with the end result of getting drastically better.
i value these changes in myself more than anything, which is where the internal reward comes in. korean dj said that he stayed true to his goals, which was something i glossed over reading the interview the first time several years ago. he beat this player, he beat another, he got to be the best in his town, his school, his state....
in essence, i'm trying to do the same thing. i'm setting forth goals in these players that i look up to so i can feel pride in myself for the achievement of beating them, or being better than them. "people i want to trounce," the 0th tier, will yield the goal of consistency. beating a huge name in tournament, in finals or semifinals, will be the payoff of playing under pressure, on the national stage, and pulling it out.
so my apologies if "hit list" sounds a bit vicious or vindictive, but it's really an elaborate way of saying that i believe in myself more, my confidence is at a high point, and that i am committed to improvement because i KNOW i can do it.
in short:
i got this
